My psalm

Lord I want to say something to you
From my very deepest heart
What? What is in there that I want to express?

I'm so thankful you've saved me
I'm so happy you've given me true life
I know I'm not living in it the way I could
But I get stuck in places and I need your help
I get worried, I get stressed
I get in a hurry, I get annoyed, frustrated, despairing

But you are the confidence
and hope of nations
You are my confidence and my hope

I want to do what I'm made to do
I want to feel what I'm made to feel
And I pray tonight that You would work out
Your life in me, make me of strong character
Make the fruits of the spirit ripen in me
And move me into my place

I want to be in a place where you can flow through me
Where I can truly be
poured out like an offering
But I'm so tired of trying to pour out what I don't have
I want to be me
The me You've made me to be
I want the gifts You've placed in me
to function well and be utilized
In the way You made me to work

What is it that you want to do with me?
I want to be not unwise, but wise,
knowing what the will of the Lord is

I long to just be, to just be me
Not to just be me but to really be me
I want to be all that I can be in You
I want to stretch out and expand
and fill up the space
I want to be just the right color,
the right sound, the right pattern

Lord, what do I do with all this longing?
This longing to be a totally free person
To be functional, alive, fully alive, fully awake,
a living, breathing, walking, talking person
and no longer a fake

I want Your life to pour through me
and out of me
and bless everything
and everyone around me.